I dont know if my dream was telling me that it’ll be the same, or that, things are starting to get serious already sigh.
sometimes, what i do when i feel down, i take all the pills from the cupboards and pop them out and just count them all and i keep them all in a little box in my chest of draws
it makes me sick to look in the box, but even sicker because i know im a coward because i only take a small amount so it won’t kill me
Guys you don’t even understand how badly I want to rip myself to pieces right now.
Relapsing is like saying hi to an old friend
My life plan today was basically fired up then exploded in my face.
I have no idea what I’m going to do with my life anymore.
I honestly don’t even want life.
I cant do things right .
I feel like I’m living in this empty shell of a heart .
I actually give up.
I feel no drive,
I feel pain
I think they’re coming back, I don’t know if I can deal with this again
I never thought that my self esteem would get this bad. Never. But it doesnt feel like its the worse yet.